The Hungry Writer

An unemployed writer keeping sane during The Depression II.

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Defending your life.

Posted by The eDater on January 29, 2009

Like this, but the pasta's fattening.

Like this, but the pasta's fattening.

It’s perhaps the most dreaded aspect of unemployment. We can all do without the money, you can get used to homelessness, and health insurance is over-rated for all those with intact achilles tendons.

But, in a society where what you do is often who you are, an unemployed shlub faces the withering cross-examination sooner or later. Prepare as you might, it takes saintly patience – and faith – to escape this well-meaning attack.

And I don’t claim to have either.

It hasn’t really begun yet – my grandmother isn’t in town, after all – but the set-up is there. First, suggest gaining some skills. Throw some job leads out there which have absolutely nothing to do with your experience, interests, or aptitudes. Tell stories of someone getting lucky and imply that should be you. Suggest random careers that graze an interest – but, but, they pay pretty well. Ain’t that enough?

Sooner or later it may be – but the worried closest often descend the Degrees of Desperation faster than the subject. After all, it’s just a job title to most of them. Only to you will it be your life – or a huge mass of hours therein.

And refuse these suggestions at your peril – you’re unemployed, after all! I’m not sure unemployed folks really get that big a say, do they? Beggars and choosers and all – right?

In the depression, one of the commonest complaints wasn’t the hunger – it was the feeling of impotence. The inability to provide. You’re going to feel this at some point, if the jobless state lasts long enough.

And in this market, it will.

And when that feeling comes – well, you’ll be ready to do anything.

So, how should you defend your life? In my opinion – don’t. Take all the suggestions. Act on a defensible number. Re-examine your inner kernel often enough you can hold it steady, but no need to mention it. Just graciously accept everything coming in, almost apologetically – too bad you’ve created this uncomfortable social situation, sorry, but I sure do appreciate you braving it to help.

And then do what you want, anyway. Often, what you want and what is offered will cross over – and then, if haven’t been too busy defending yourself, you’ll hear it and run.

Now, see if you can get all those emotions and contradictory ideas to work together – without snapping once, without doubting once. Saintly indeed.

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An efficient bugger

Posted by The eDater on January 26, 2009

The breakfast, lunch, and dinner of losers.

The breakfast, lunch, and dinner of losers.

So, with my move down to the ‘jobs’ in the city coming in a scant 2 or 3 days, I’ve been trying to clean out my cupboard. And to be honest, I’m getting really tired of mac n’ cheese and pasta. But still, it feels rather nice to eat a food supply down to nothing. There’s a perverse sense of accomplishment. Rather like using every part of a carcass – those deer antlers bumped against each other to attract other deer to the fighting, knives made from the bones, rope from the tendons… yes, I’m comparing the slurping of cereal to the efficiency of hunter-gatherers. And I’m not backing down either.

And each bite of ramen is already bought and paid for – sustenance for free! Or for a sunk cost, which is more or less the same.

As I savor my shrimp-flavored powder, not quite dissolved, here’s a nice roundup of tech recession news, courtesy of Engadget. They’re reporting a rumored number of 16,000 cuts at IBM, which, if true, is a really big number. Because after all, IBM is one of the few companies that beat earnings estimates recently, along with Apple and a very few others. Maybe that’s why it’s only 16,000 – which would be about 4% of IBM’s workforce, a relatively small percentage compared with, oh, everyone else wielding an axe.

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